The path Chosen

So I have decided to take the new path that was presented to me and see where it leads me.  I believe that it was put before me so that I can take what I have learned on my current path and apply it as well as add more to my knowledge.  I believe that this path will test my love for myself and help me grow that.  It is an area that I have always struggled in.  I will start on this path very slowly and definitely stay cautious, but I am excited to see where it leads me.  Things are falling into place for me and Cody and I can't help but think it is due to the wonderful and amazing support system that we have had!  Everyone has been so amazing with offering to help in so many ways!  I look at where I was when I was with Michael and how much I hated myself and hated life and compare it to where I am now and the difference is amazing.
I know now that Michael leaving was meant to happen and it was sadly one of the best things for me.  I took my hurt from it and was able to turn it into a positive by focusing on myself and learning how to love myself.  I was able to make my relationship with Cody so much better and start teaching him how to love himself and others.  This has been a really good year and a half for me and I am excited to see where the next year takes us!
To everyone who is reading this just remember to wake up and love yourself each day because you are so worth it!  If you struggle with that like I have then wake up, look in the mirror and tell yourself that you love you and that you are worth it, then write out five things that you love about yourself and read it out loud!

The Paths we choose

This weekend has been full of many different emotions for me.  I have had so much happen in 2.5 days it has definitely been a whirlwind. I was approved for a house, we found one, made an offer and it was accepted.  I have to find a way to come up with another $2,000.   I then had a long time friend message me (new path) and an Ex message me (old path).  I have chosen to stay single since my last break up which has been over a year and half ago.  I chose to take this time to focus on myself and my relationship with my son.  I wasn't being the best mom I could be and still have some improving to do.  However I felt as though I was presented with three different paths this weekend and I need to choose which one to go on.  Do I take my current path in a new direction with a new guy, do I stay where I am at on my current path and keep doing what I have been doing, or do I take a Uturn and return to an old path and maybe take that one in a different direction.
So many choices, I guess it is time to sit down and have a talk with myself to see what it is I am truly desiring.  I have been happy on my current path, but as of late have felt something is missing... maybe one of these other paths is the answer... who knows.   It is funny how life presents you with different opportunities and you are forced to make a choice, no matter how silly you may think that choice is it will effect you no matter what.

Smile

Not too long ago I can remember I was so happy, I could see it in every picture and every time I Smiled.  As of late I look at my pictures and I can tell that I am no longer happy.  To be honest I look and feel exaughsted and defeated.  I am not sure where these feelings have come from, but I do know that I have not been taking care of myself like I should be.  I haven't really taken anytime to just relax and let my body and mind rest.  I also haven't been eating the best or exercising.  I keep telling myself once we get into a house because right now we have things packed and boxes everywhere it is a mess.
The lessons I have learned recently is to take care of you first or you are not going to enjoy anything.  I think it is time for a much needed change and a much needed pampering session!