Life isn't always sunshine and roses, but it is what you make it

Life has hit me full force lately.  As some may already know I had vertical sleeve gastrectomy surgery on 01/21/2019.  Thankfully I have had no complications from that surgery for almost 1.5 years.  However on Tuesday 05/19/2020 I had a sever gallbladder attack, first time I have ever had an issue with my gallbladder.  If you have had one then you know my pain haha.  It completely debilitated me.  I have a pretty high pain tolerance too, so I know if I felt the pain at a 10 it was not good.  I was debating on whether or not to try and make it to the ER, mind you I couldn't get up off the couch or really move at all. I used a heating pad with some CBD drops and was able to dull the ache a little with it finally subsiding about 4 hours later.  I called my surgeon's office the next morning and they got me in for an ultrasound and confirmed that I had gallstones.  This is a common side effect from the surgery I had and I would only continue to have more attacks so they decided they wanted to remove my gallbladder.  So this Friday 5/29/2020 I will go in to get my gallbladder removed.

This will be my third surgery in 1.5 years, my second one was my ACL reconstruction in November 2019, which I am still in recovery from (long process for recovery unfortunately).  Along with all that I started a new job in March, which I love so that is great but it brings its own highs and lows haha!  I love the new environment and the fact that I have my own clients that I get to work with, I love most of the people I work with and most days are generally great.  I do not enjoy the inner office drama (not as terrible as where I was before, but still annoying and avoidable if people learned to control their attitudes).

The last few days have been really hard on my heart.  I have had a lot come at me all at once, which has caused a lot of anxiety.  Trying to take it day by day and make a list of what I can do and don't worry about the things I can't get to before my surgery.  I also think all this quarantine and COVID BS has taken a toll on me more than I would like to admit.  I miss being out at Cody's sports and being busy all the time. 

I am choosing to look at the bright side of things, I have gotten some much needed things done around my house, I have an amazing support system, I have a job that I love and is flexible, and I am alive, breathing, and healthy.  Life is all about perspective!