The last few months have been really stressful... I am close to my breaking point as of late. I have tried so hard to give my son the life I never had, to let him have every opportunity possible, but it has come at a price. I have turned into my child's slave... Honestly I feel like a single parent is a child's slave. I spend all my money on him, all my time on him, and for what?
So he can whine and complain when he doesn't get his way or throw a fit when I crack down on the rules... Like seriously WTH!
I wonder sometimes how anyone can enjoy being a parent... I currently am not finding any joy in it what so ever! I spend most of my time working to pay bills and for his sports, driving from one destination to another and then sitting for hours on end watching practices and games, I am up late cleaning from the whirlwind dinner that was cooked and the days dishes from lunch and breakfast, I am up early to get ready for work or sports or get my kid off to school.
On top of my time being spent so is my money. How does our economy expect any single parent to survive and raise a kid or multiples with how expensive everything is!! Seriously though... $1000 or more for daycare... that's almost as much as my mortgage! It should be illegal to charge that much money for childcare... or every school in the country should provide both before and after school programs for those of us who are working and trying to make a living, but cant when you have to spend all your money on flipping child care...
I am tired of struggling and trying to hustle to make ends meet, I am exaughsted from getting no sleep because I am either up late cleaning, or cant sleep due to stress. I am tired of doing it all on my own, but not willing to let others help. I am tired or working hard and seeing no outcome, I am tired of being broken!
Guess I needed to get stuff off my chest
I almost envy the fact that you have the ability to keep up at least... I am unable to keep up with both my boys in the past yr and half, due to my head problems. Cub scouts/basketball/school etc., money .. All of it is stressful, and at this point I have had to reach out for help and it makes me sick to do it. I am sorry u have to go through it alone, I don't necessarily know what its like to be a single parent as I have nick around, but he is never home... So I am left to do everything alone, with a child like mentality after brain surgery. I just keep telling myself that with everything I have been through in just the past year... 13 deaths,surgeries etc... Somewhere along the way it has to get easier. 😥
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