Finding Love

Most who know me know that I have been through the wringer when it comes to love and relationships.  Growing up I didn't always have the best relationship with some family and as I got older I found myself in quite a few unhealthy relationships.  When I was in high school I was an attention seeker.  Any male who gave me attention I was "in love" with.  I would basically do anything that they said as long I got the attention that I craved.  I began sleeping around to deal with my family issues and to continue getting the attention that I wanted/needed. 
I have since grown up, but not easily.  I had to go through some rough patches to get to where I am now.  I was in a relationship with my sons father for almost 3.5 years. It was a long and drawn out relationship that should have ended a lot sooner than it did.  He was extremely abusive, not physically, but mentally and emotionally.  He manipulated me every chance he could.  Out of our 3.5 years he was in jail for a total of 1 year (at 2 separate times).  Although I was miserable and depressed almost the entire time I did get some good things out of those years.  I met some of my best friends that I still have to this day and I got my amazing son, Cody. 
I decided after what I went through that I was just going to focus on being a mom and finishing school.  So that is what I did for the next 3 years.
Then I decided I was going to get a summer job at Silverwood.  I told myself that I was just there to work and that I wasn't going to become all buddy buddy with anyone or date anyone.  Ha-ha!  That didn't last long.  I met this guy name Michael.  We started flirting and it eventually turned into a relationship.  It was perfect to me.  He treated me well, yes not perfect, but much better than I had been treated in the past.  We moved in together and has our own little family.  It was perfect... or at least it would have been if we didn't have to ever interact with the outside world ha-ha.  We lasted almost 2.5 years and were engaged at one point, but things slowly unraveled and we unfortunately couldn't put it back together.  He found another girl, closer to his age, and moved out.  I was left broken into pieces, I had become so comfortable and so dependent on him.  I wasn't really sure how I was going to move on or that I wanted to.  I harbored a lot of angry feelings for a long time.   I eventually got over it and moved on.  I focused on myself and living life to the fullest.  I joined beachbody and am working on getting into shape and getting healthy.  I want to teach my son how to be healthy.  I also became a coach and gained an amazing group of friends that I am so thankful for.  They motivate and encourage me every single day.
Recently I have started dating again.  I actually feel comfortable in my own skin, which is amazing!  I am supposed to have a date with a guy this week that I really am starting to like.  Wish me luck!